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Monday, 24 September 2007

  • content

    The past couple of weeks have been really hectic.

    I've lost some friends,

    I've gained some friends.

    I've met some of the most amazing people...

    It's kid of funny how they're all younger than me.

    hehe.

    But, I love them.

    They're awesome.

    School's good.

    I got my grades about a week ago.

    Childhood Education - B (I think she messes the grades up on purpose, bitch)

    Russian - A (Yay!)

    English - C (I will bring that bitch up to an A if it's the last thing I do.)

    Creative Writing - A (That is the freakin funest class writing. Some days we honestly just sit in there and read.)

    Today, I felt like I was finally ok with my life.

    I am once again content with my life.

    Yay!

    ...even though Rick is coming back...

    But, I honestly haven't thought about him til this afternoon, when I thought I might see him.

    So, maybe it wont be too bad.

    Well, going to finish watching Pan's Labrinth for the 3rd time.

     

    Love.

Monday, 20 August 2007

  • 2 am

    purple eyes

    black hair

    live by interests

    notice everything

    writer's mind

    artist's eyes

    creature of habit

    constantly thinking

    found someone new

    can't get rid of the past

    in fear of the future

    just want to live in the present

    intrigued by him

    hating another

    sex

    terrifying

    wanting more

    constantly writing

    can't stop thinking

    want to get him out of my head

    need to be in his arms

Friday, 17 August 2007

  • Time

    Thinking too much

    Again and again

    Can't get him out of my head

    Can't get them out

    Too many options

    I do not with to take

    Secretly wishing

    For just one little mistake

    Missing the feeling

    Wanting to go back

    Seeing the future

    Afraid to hide

    Too many people

    On my mind

    Can't stop thinking

    Thinking all the time

    Half an hour to go

    Wanting to see him

    Worrying

    About a time far away

    About a day of hell

    When he comes back

    Never want to see him again

    But longing to be in his arms

    I don't want to choose...

    -August 15, 2007

Tuesday, 14 August 2007

  • Nicholas Black

    Searching for perfection

    With scars

    Pain in the eyes

    Love in words

    Lies more than pain

    A past memory

    A lover

    Feeling comfortable

    But keeping up my guard

    Keeping in control

    Looking for things

    That are only seen in him

    No hope for the new ones

    Just not interested

    Content for now

    Until that day of Hell

    In late September

    My past come for me

    Lover with a player

    Love and Hate

    White and Black

    Adema and ICP

    Connection

    Seperation